really going private....

So i have learned and found out that people have been looking on here and I don't want them looking and knowing personal stuff about me and Bear so I really need to get this on private...since there are events I will be blogging about that I don't want the whole world knowing :) I didn't write the emails down from the last time so if you want to continue reading please leave me your email address...thanks!!

My Dear Grandpa

My Grandpa always had a big smile on his face

My grandpa always had his guitar in hand...he taught my dad how to play the guitar


My very sweet grandparents!

June 15 started out like any other day....I got up and got ready for work, drove my 45 minute commute to work, and started my work day. As I was sitting at my desk filing papers and typing away on the computer, around 12:45, my dad came up to my desk and his voice and look worried me and it was not his usual cheerful smiley self. I jumped up from my chair and said "whats wrong" and all he could say was "grandpa" "grandpa" and made the hand signal of GONE! I didn't believe him at first. I kept saying "Grandpa Bingham?" "Your dad" "my grandpa is gone!" I seriously could not believe it! I instantly bursted into tears and my anxiety was starting to go in overdrive. I went and called Bear and told him what had happened. Bear's Grandpa passed away 4 days earlier on June 11Th so it was something I didn't want to tell him but had to...I needed his support and he has been a great support to me!

I just saw my grandpa 2 weeks earlier for our monthly family fast Sunday dinner and he was so happy and healthy and we had nothing to worry about. He walked 5 miles a day and his doctor said he was healthy for his age so NO ONE saw this coming at all! We sat and talked and laughed about the past, present and the future. We said our good-bye's, gave him a hug and a kiss and that was that. He whispered something to me that I will never forget and he could not of said it at a better time and he sealed it with a kiss on my forehead...

So after my Dad told me what had happened I called my boss to let him know what had happened and he let me leave work so I could be with the family. As I was driving to my grandparents house and I was in the car all alone, thats when I let it all out! Good thing I had a plastic bag in there as well :] I don't handle this stuff very well!

As I pulled up to my grandparents house there was a Cop SUV there and a response team vehicle from the Fire dept. I called my brother Joey(he was already there) and told him to come outside and walk with me up to the house because I just couldn't do it by myself. My mom, my dad, brother Joey, Aunt Wendy, Uncle Matt were all there when I got there. As I walked into my grandparents room he was there laying his bed, looked like he was sleeping. That was the hardest thing to see...I was just standing there staring at him thinking he was gonna wake up but he never did. More family came and we all hugged and cried together and had a family prayer right there!

It still does not seem real and I don't want to accept it that he is really gone! He had at least another 20 years! Right now I do not know why he was taken but someday we will all know and have a better understanding as to why it happened the way it did! I know he is in a good place with his family and is happy!

I love my grandpa very much and will always cherish all the memories! His family was so important to him and we all knew he loved each of us the same! He was supportive of all us, would go to all the functions we were involved in, he would always tell us he loved us, he was always there if we needed someone to talk to, and soooo much more! He was the nicest man ever and if you didn't like him then there was something wrong with you :] I admire his strength and knowledge he had of the Gospel. He knew so much and had such a strong passion for it and he loved it!

I love you grandpa and miss you so much! But I know we will see each other again and I am so grateful for my knowledge of the Plan of Salvation! Thank you for everything you did for me and for the whole family!

xoxoxoxoxoxox

Bike Night

This past week we went to bike night out at Westgate with our good friends Dusty and Stacy...It was a lot of fun and there were a TON of bikes there to look at that were really unique and cool looking. Since Bear is a good sport and does a lot of things with me that he doesn't really "want to do", I decided I should return the favor and in the end I had a great time and I am sure we will be going again....Thanks Dusty and Stacy for showing us a good time :]

one of the very unique bikes that we saw...

Gleek

I am a GLEEK! There I admit it :] Every Tues at 8 you can find me sitting on the couch watching Glee! I love the music and the drama of it...it makes my heart happy! So a few months a go I read they were coming to 3 cities and Phoenix was their first stop and I knew I would be going! When my friend Criselda found out we decided to make it our "birthday" outing since we both our birthdays were around the date of the concert! Let me tell you it was the best concert! I think I had a smile on my face the whole time! I rank it up there with the Rascal Flatts concert I went to when I had front row! LOVED LOVED LOVED it!

Pottery

Well here are the after pics of the pottery we did LAST month on our anniversary! I love the way they turned out and can't wait to go back again...

I am turning into a horrible blogger cause I feel like I have nothing to blog about since its just me and bear around here...hopefully that will change soon :)

5 Years

On Thursday we celebrated our 5th anniversary! Look at how much we have aged :) It has been a fun 5 years so far together and its been a great learning experience! Sure some things have not gone particularly the way we have wanted...having kids.....but it will happen when the time is right! And we can't wait till that day comes! But lots of things have been right and for that I am greatful! I love Bear and feel lucky to have him in my life!


For our anniversary I took 2 days off of work so we could hang out and just relax at home together! On Thursday we went shopping and went to a place called color me mine. Its a pottery place where you can paint & decorate different types of pottery. I am definatley going to go back! We both painted mugs for eachother...I know Bear is NOT a firefighter yet but he will someday be one so I painted him a red mug with the Malteese Cross. And he painted mine zebra
print because I am into the zebra print right now and a big M on it! Then we painted a pie plate together! I had so much fun....We can't pick them up until Tuesday because they have to glaze them and put them in the Kiln? or whatever it is. So they will look 100 times better.

Hiking

Where we are living right now we are living on a mountain so last week we decided to go and climb the mountain right behind our house. The hike was probably a total of 2 miles and after a few steps I was done! It reminded me how much out of shape I am in! The view around us was awesome and to see the valley in that different view gives you a more appreciation for what we are given.

My favorite baby girl

How cute is she! These are just some of my favorite pics of my ADORABLE niece! I love her so much! Thanks Elaine and Shane for having her :) She sure does bring so much happiness to our family....!